La Micia and I will be moving to a new apartment here in Spain very soon. We will no longer be in a House with a Family of 4 plus Lindsay and this is really scary for La Micia and I. The comfort of being around people you know in a foreign place is something that is so easy to take for granted, its subtle and hard to notice it, but now that we are leaving I see just how valuable it was and why God had us live in Cash and Maria’s house while we got on our feet here in Spain. Living here has been such a blessing from God and I feel like in leaving, we are leaving the nest.
I feel like I understand how a bird feels when its Mom pushes it out of the nest, the amount of Faith it must require from the Mom to trust its baby can fly and the amount of Faith the baby has in trusting that his Mom is not trying to kill him by pushing him out of the nest. In our case, God is leading us to move into a place of our own and we must trust that he has faith in us and is not trying to hurt us with the push and will still be there to guide us.
Even though this is the case, I’m still challenged by fear and faithlessness with each transition and this newest transition has proven very hard.
There are so many unknowns and variables with the next Chapter of our mission here in Spain and it has forced me to go deeper than I ever have in my faith. Cash just preached a sermon on the passage when Jesus was asleep in a boat with his disciples and a storm hit, the disciples then woke Jesus and rhetorically accused him of not caring and being willing to let them die in the storm. Jesus’ words to his disciples as I re-read them right now hit me like a ton of bricks. Jesus responds, “why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” (Mark 4:40) the point of this, as Cash pointed out in his lesson is that if we really believe who God says he is and if we really rely on his promises like a deer relies on water, we would have absolutely no fears.
La Micia and I have been faced with if I really believe who God says he is during each transition we make, and every single time he has proven his word to be faithful and this move to a new house will be no different. I know that as long as La Micia and I put our trust in God and not money, jobs, friends, languages and our talents we will never be shaken.
“Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him” Psalm 37:7