You might be thrown off by the title of this post but last night I thought to myself, wow we have been bouncing from basement to basement for it feels like years. We are in the states visiting for a month and now we are staying in the basement at my parents house for a week. Makes me remember when we lived in a basement in Baltimore to save money to move to Spain…
So now, when we come back to the states we are staying in basements and spare rooms. We have a home in Spain for which I am grateful for but during my moments of weakness I can think, man what kind of life is this? Almost as if I don’t have a home. Even when I am home I feel like the country I am currently in isn’t home anymore, I’ve been thinking where is my home? Will Pat and I always be on the mission field? Will we ever settle in one place, be able to paint the walls and settle in and have kids?
Although I know that this can be the reality of being a disciple, it’s
still difficult. When I have difficult times I think about this blog,
especially it’s name, no place to lay based on Matthew 8:19-20:
19 Then a teacher of the law came to him and said, “Teacher, I will
follow you wherever you go.” 20 Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens and
birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.”
When I made Jesus Lord of my life and decided to follow him, I knew
that this would be my fate, but why is it so hard to accept? It’s
because I can be so sentimental. There’s so much that comes with a
“home”, but the main thing is comfort, and Jesus knew this. He knew that men love home, and can love home over him and following him.
Here’s the GREAT NEWS about leaving home though!
28 Then Peter spoke up, “We have left everything to follow you!” 29
“Truly I tell you,” Jesus replied, “no one who has left home or
brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me
and the gospel 30 will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this
present age: homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and
fields—along with persecutions—and in the age to come eternal life. 31
But many who are first will be last, and the last first.”
Wow, I love the Bible, this is exactly how I felt!!! Peter told Jesus, have I not left everything to follow you? I have asked God the same exact thing. Have I not left everything to follow you?! And Jesus promises me that I will receive even more than I left behind in this life. My heart sings as I write this! Those times when I was missing home, even when I was depressed I think now that this all makes sense and is totally worth it. I gotta keep my eyes on the prize! And not give up. This is the ride of my life, it’s constantly up and down let me tell you but I’ve become so much closer to God. I’ve never felt this uncomfortable before, but I’ve never felt this close to God before. I’m struggling but I feel good, it’s weird😜
Keep us in prayer!