January 7th we fly out to live in Spain for Lord willing two years! The preparation for the trip is past packing, it’s a mental and emotional for me. Here’s why:
I moved to Maryland from New York,
May 18, 2013
June 26, 2013
October 12, 2013
That all happened in a 5-6 month time-span. And now it’s time to move to Spain January 7, 2015. Not to another state but to another country! Do I have a place to lay or settle down? Simply put, No.
Although I am physically tired of change, this is the life God has for me. This blog is called no place to lay and it is, truly my life. I think I am having a hard time coming to terms with the way my lifestyle is. I think its great, and I am thankful but I like the familiar. Adapting to change is hard for me and being an introvert doesn’t help. Moving forces me to get to know people, and adjust to something new. I am a person that likes to hide and moving all the time doesn’t afford me the opportunity to do that.
I know God knows what’s best for me, and I think having no place to lay is what I need in order to stay close to him. Plus, it’s really what I want to do, really it is. I’m just wresting with God a little. I actually love to travel, but with a home base. This time I’m a rolling stone.
This is what the LORD says: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the LORD. -Jeremiah 17:5
During these times of change I use this scripture to be less dependent on myself, and more dependent on God. When I depend on my flesh, I do feel cursed, even enslaved because my body can’t endure a lot of emotional change. Although I am wresting with it all, if it helps me get to heaven then I guess it is worth it.